Marisa,

I Love you.

I know that you say you don't swing "that way" (Les) and that you claim you don't swing "both ways" (bi) and i'm not sure that i should tell you face to face because of the reaction i'll get from you. I understand that you are a very openminded person and that you are my friend (correct me if i'm wrong cuz you really aren't acting like a good friend right now...) but i do trust you with my secrets and i trust that you won't tell anyone if you happen to read this.

Also, at school, you always try your hardest to avoid me and act like i'm poisonous or something like that, why? You said to me THREE MONTHS ago that you needed space so i respected your wishes. Now, three months and a week later, you act as though i don't even exist. That's not like you to do something so....idk, cruel(?).
What i want to know is, you say that you need personal space and you texted me saying something about "maintaing" our friendship by NOT talking to each other and hanging out with other friends, i don't get your logic. Please explain.

And if you're just saying that we're still friends when
you really don't want to be, you don't have to lie. Crush my soul if you told me that and push me off a building, i'd be devastated and heartbroken if you told me that you didn't want to be friends but i'd understand anyway. I do want to be friends but i want to spend more friend time with you. You're pushing me away like you did with E. Marucci last year. Is my personality really that unappealing that you HAVE to force me from your life?


Advice anybody?